healing

I guess healing comes in different ways Three months pass And you think you're okay Then you wake up one day After a bad dream you had In the middle of the night And you thought you were fine But you're not And you're back where it started I guess now I have to pick up my old ways See your face everyday cause I look it up On the internet And I hate myself Cause you seem happy without me Are you happy without me? Why did you have to pick up the phone? A year ago, when I called you at one Why did you have to make me fall When you knew you couldn't be That someone for me I thought you were someone for me I guess blaming you will not change anything About the way I feel inside of my heart But it does help, with my head Can I blame it all on you? I'll be good If you do that too Why did I have to call you? Why did I have to love you? Why did I have to put a bet on us I should've known it was way too much When I knew we were out of luck I guess now I have to pack my bags Cause there's nothing left for me here I swear I was fine Until I had that dream about who we used to be And all the things we did I wasn't ready for this Now I know what's waiting for me It comes in waves and it leaves you there I heard that's what people say So I guess I'll be okay