God's Strongest Soldier

They say they love you Till its time to show it And when you're at your lowest They say they ain't even know it They say they ain't even notice wake up I feel nothing 400mg just to function Take a step back, easy does it I need help, but I don't want it I look up to the sky The wind is at my shoulders I fight the urge to cry I feel I'm growing older My breath turns straight to ice The ocean's frozen over There's no will to survive Am I God's Strongest Soldier? Slipping in and out of dreams I cannot recall The one that I remember, I'm an angel and I fall And it feels like heaven's gates are closed to me The sight of them blinds me, I fall to my knees Somehow it takes all my breath away Confused, and not quite lucid I stare right at my face I'll drink up the anhydrous and then throw down some more Its never been this hard to get through one week before I always thought that I'd die in vain That every trace of my name would fade That all that I made would fade, decay In a grave that I just dug today But that's overthinking it, over drinking it, overflow again Do it all for you, and just make it true, don't worry about the end Cause I ain't dead yet I look up to the sky The wind is at my shoulders I fight the urge to cry I feel I'm growing older My breath turns straight to ice The ocean's frozen over There's no will to survive Am I God's Strongest Soldier? And I hate to say "I can't today" I don't feel worthy, so here I'll stay These habits don't seem to have an end God's Strongest Soldier failed again I look up to the sky The wind is at my shoulders I feel no urge to die I know I'm growing colder My breath turns straight to ice The ocean's frozen over I know I will survive God has no strongest soldier