Hypocrite

My friends been missing lately Is it harsh to say they hate me I know I'm nineteen but I wanna take it Back to the days of eighteen Sitting here just feels like hiding My patience would rather be dying I've made mistakes and that's ok but Does that mean I can't be thriving I feel alone separated from myself I can't see How I'm supposed to help myself when I can't even call me kind Call me a hypocrite Call me at an all time low I'll show you love that I really can't show myself Self Self love is hard for me Call me a time bomb Waiting for the time to strike I'll give you love that'll end up hurting my own self Self Self love is hard for me My heart's been open lately Trying to help compassionately I know I'm nineteen but I really can't try to pull a fake me I guess the real side's toxic I hope one day people box it Realize that I could never make it without device audits I feel alone separated from myself I can't see How I'm supposed to help myself when I can't even call me kind Call me a hypocrite Call me at an all time low I'll show you love that I really can't show myself Self Self love is hard for me Call me a time bomb Waiting for the time to strike I'll give you love that'll end up hurting my own self Self Self love is hard for me Call me a hypocrite Call me at an all time low I'll show you love that I really can't show myself Self Self love is hard for me Call me a time bomb Waiting for the time to strike I'll give you love that'll end up hurting my own self Self Self love is hard for me