Can't Keep Picking Me Up

I let the grass grow under my feet  I won't make you stay I won't help you leave  Empty Crayon boxes  Colors I've forgotten  Painted you in black and white  The fruits gone rotten  Withdrawal, detox  The jokes on me  You were holding my hand and I was holding you back  You were pulling me over when I wanted to crash  No seriously  I'm not strong enough  I'll keep falling down  You can't keep picking me up  I can't help what comes out of my mouth  What were we saying? What was I talking about? Left it on the table  Baptized with a label  Drowning in the water  But I'm incapable  Coughing, laughter  Choking clown  You were holding my hand and I was holding you back  You were pulling me over when I wanted to crash  No seriously  I'm not strong enough  I'll keep falling down  You can't keep picking me up I washed up face down on the shore  You gave me everything, couldn't of asked for more  A hopeless romantic  Broken trust I panicked  My smile stained with coffee  Cigarettes organic  Soapbox savior  Alone at war  You were holding my hand and I was holding you back  You were pulling me over when I wanted to crash  No seriously  I'm not strong enough  I'll keep falling down  You can't keep picking me up I let the grass grow under my feet  I couldn't help you stay so I made you leave