Alive!

They'd form a single-file line, carry on with some last goodbyes All dressed in black, they'd cry, cry, cry, cry You can't hurt no more inside when your inside's formaldehyde Hope that mom won't sigh 'cause she tried, tried, tried, tried But I'm still alive Parked my car on Prospect St., but this wasn't the scene that it was last week No begging and pleading. No flowers, no crying Really nothing much, just me and my piece Wrote and posted my note, yeah Dotted my I's and crossed all the T's It's kind of nice in these last few minutes Before one of her neighbors got to call the police No more trips to the hospital, parents got me doing these overnights Honeymoon suite prices for a cot The fuckin' chicken tenders sucked and so did the fries No more Hallmark speeches from my friends saying Keep your chin up for happier days A month and a half of toying with the thought But pretty soon it'll be all okay I lifted the glock to my temple and this woman came jogging by She was almost the last one that ever saw me while I I was still alive So I loaded the bullets, now just had to pull it and wave goodbye Finger on the trigger, I stopped and, honestly, I don't know why Cause what's left to live for when you let the right love go to waste And the rest of your life's just a fruitless, endless, hopeless chase to replace Well it's two years later, so I guess I got through the worst Still almost jumped off a parking garage on the 4th of July Shot my laundry and ruined like half of my shirts You don't know what you got till she's in Austin alone And you ain't going to Greece Half all your friends are engaged now And you're still third-wheeling at the beach Well the other day I spilled my guts again to like the hundredth friend But for the first time I actually heard him when he said He was glad that I'm I'm still alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Oh And I don't see no God, just sky. That stance ain't been revised To say I've redeemed my mistake is a lie Corona's kind of killing the vibe We're unemployed and terrified But it's cool, I'm enjoying the ride 'Cause I'm still Here to say "thanks" and "I love you" to the ones That threw me a rope when I was willing to drown Who were right all along when said there's still plenty Here to make it worth even sticking around I fucked up a big one, yeah. That life of a dream, it's dead And all that's left here anyway is... fuckin' anything I want instead I get high, I get low, and I got places to go I got some striking out to do I live it, I lose it, I learn, and I love And there's always a chance that you can start anew This ain't just the first time in two years that I've felt the chills It's the joy of a life to finally feel when you're still Still, still I'm still alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Ooh ooh ooh ooh alive Oh