Heaven

Was the sky always so Bright and beautiful Was it always surreal This cloud sphere The birds and the worms are all in it, too Was this the usual Were the fields above me so green The whole time I've been down here Cause, damn, I've been down here And I want to believe this place is Heaven if you make it heaven Or it's an unending fight with a parasite If you feed it It's LED if you shut the shades Hedonism, the weapon They'll let you see it, believe it Before you lose it, need it Perpetually dream it And you want the open road And you want love when you come home And you want to stay clean for a month Maybe for once, just stay clean for a month What are friends when you ain't been lonely Can you show me Peace beyond the waves that throw me Can you show me Is free even free if you can't even tell How free freedom feels outside of a cell Outside of this spell, but it's just as well Maybe right before heaven they send you to hell Hell Hell Ah ahh Maybe right before heaven, man That's when they send you to hell Hell Hell Ah ahh Maybe right before heaven, man That's where they send you to But who's to say That's the way We going today And we don't want to turn to chemicals when we're alone And we don't want to lose all our comfort but stay in the zone And we don't want to see but never be seen And we don't want to see what we see, but just through a screen And I want the smile I had before I lost it And I want it full of teeth from before they were rotted And I want to earn the next time I'm exhausted I want to hold the gun that keeps this demon hostage Is there a floor below me Can you show me A window 'cause it's getting smoky Can you show me The pillow's the softest when they ring your bell Where's all the cushions? I think I just fell Maybe our scars are as good as a shell And right before heaven they send you to hell Ah ahh Maybe right before heaven they send you to hell Ah ahh Maybe right before heaven they send you to But who's to say That's the way We going today But who's to say That's the way We gotta stay But who's to say That's the way We going today But who's to say That's the way We gotta stay Who's to say If it's a dream We can redeem We're never sure How could we be That God will stay good to me Who could know Before it shows That life is, in fact, so beautiful Who's to say That's the way That we'll find a heaven that's here to stay