I'm an Addict, Too

So it starts again: I talk about you behind your back And to your face, so you hide your face from attack I used to think you think I’m mean, now I know you think I am And maybe you’re right, but that was never the plan I guess I didn’t know how to deal, so I opted for tough love If it was love at all, ‘cause I’m not sure it was I just thought you were dumb, maybe even lazy And I don’t think it’s mutual, but I’m pretty sure you hate me And this didn’t have to be Cause I’m learning things about me Oh, and with any luck, I thought, you got got like twenty years to go But that’s if you learn some damn self-control Taking hit after hit, didn’t you see the warning signs How weren’t they enough to get you to ignore the high Who’s even left in your circle still? I’m one of few and I’m breathing fire What kind of son am I to make you want to get even higher Oh, and I know my grief ain’t what you need You’re already fighting your own, plus the dopamine And this didn’t have to be Cause I’m learning things about me Like how I realized that this ain’t just an attitude And the stress of the whole damn thing, I think, has got me doing it, too I’ve become what I scold you for, so it’s time to change my tune Yeah, I started to realize that I, I’m an addict, too Looking back I still can’t support what you did objectively But now I’m in it, too, and I see the way you look at me You ain’t letting me back in now, too much vitriol And even if I could help, you’d never let me know And this didn’t have to be Cause I’m learning some things about me lately Like how I realize that this ain’t just an attitude And the stress of the whole damn thing, I think, has got me doing it, too I’ve become what I scold you for, so it’s time to change my tune Yeah, I started to realize that I, I’m an addict, too