Six Whole Months

And so it's been, yeah, it's been six whole months Just being sad, being sad, being sad And it's tough, oh, sometimes even waking up Or going to bed when all you can think is what you could have had Had Spent a dozen years, oh, moth to light Center stage, they all know your name. Was sure I was right That that's what life's about, yeah, but I was wrong, wrong, wrong Ain't I really smart? 'Cause that was really dumb, and so you moved on And for a half a year since then it's been bliss Or maybe hospital trips, therapists, and the whole summer skipped But I swear I tried, even went to the beach and Canobie Lake Cried on the drive home both times, it was more than I could take And it hit me like a ton of bricks In the chest where the heart, turns out, it sits That you ain't hot shit When you can't stop taking hits, hits, hits And you're the middle kid But call your little brother, make him worried sick 'Cause you bought a gun, then stole another one And I'm hoping like hell that now those days are done Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away from here, oh Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away Stare all night at my phone To feel less alone Less at home and more Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away from here, oh Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away It's where I gotta go You say I'll never grow Maybe so, but all I know Is that Suddenly I'm about Picking up shifts instead of calling out And when the junk food hits my mouth That's a minute or two when I'm out Of touch With everything that's just too much Hey Swiping every face on this app 3 o'clock, taking a nap Pointless videos 'til I crash Not even ones that make me laugh They don't make me anything Oh, they could be anything Just as long as it's Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away from here, oh Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away Might even pack some bags Move a flight away Anything but trying to hear 'em when they say To let it go Let it go Let it go Well, I tried, I've tried, I've tried They say you never know You never know You never know Who's next in your life, your life, your life But I met my soul I met my soul Met my soul's mate Then it died, it died, it died So let it go? Nah, you ain't credible Pass the edibles, let's get high High, 'cause when I'm awake What am I missing anyway Anyway? Oh my God, I think These are the days, yeah these are the days that I These are the days, yeah these are the days that I These are the days, yeah these are the days that I Almost pulled the trigger on and left behind And I was so busy writing wills and losing mine Life blowing my mind to the point where I almost blew my mind Still I tried, and, oh, by summer's end Looking back, I was faced with a shot at love again I cooked for her with just an apron on, feel like I was ready now Heart still healing but I gave it away anyhow We saw hot air balloons and she made food shopping fun Was almost there but then it all went up in helium 'Cause I didn't see that These were the days, yeah these were the days that I These were the days, yeah these were the days that I These were the days, yeah these were the days that I Was overdue, can I be over you and just Flip a switch and make it true Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh ooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh ooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh oooh ooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh ooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh oooh ooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh ooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh oooh oooh Make it true, oooh Make it true, oooh ooh 'Cause what do you do When do you when it's been a half a fucking year And all you do is try but you can't make it anywhere Anywhere that's Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away from here, oh Way, way, way away from here Way, way, way away Oh, I've overstayed What wasn't welcome anyway Hey It's just another night in doubt, sitting on the couch Scared of going out, worrying about What I'm gonna wear, if I'll see you there What's it matter anyway? I see everywhere I go. Go Even though you're just a ghost, ghost, ghost, ghooooost Meet another girl, plan to see the world Make her toes curl, then get drunk and hurl Puke up the gin, thoughts I kept in Do comparisons 'til I'm alone again Alone and fucking broke, 'cause I broke Lost thirty pounds then gained it back just to cope. Cope When is it enough When is it enough When is it enough When is it enough When is it enough When is it enough When is it enough When is it enough You'd think I'd think so long ago But it's been a full, full, full, fuuuuuulllll Oh, it's been, yeah, it's been six whole months Just being sad, being sad, being sad And, if nothing else, I've learned there's probably another six ahead Maybe many more, so the ones that's been, they gotta end And I gotta say that now those days are done