My Apologies

Wish I had confidence to apologize If I did I can't even look in your sad eyes 'Cause whenever I do I start to cry Then whenever I cry I just wanna fucking hide Looking back I treated you like shit Now I just feel like I'm such a dick Overthinking makes me sick And I'm so grateful we still decided to stick Every time I badly sin I let it get under my skin Then my stomach continues to spin While the devil wears an evil grin When my head's all over the place Sadly I need my own space Nothing personal I'll be back When my mind escapes the trap I know if you leave I'll be lost But I know my love will never stop Throughout our time we never fought Going to bed with my sins in my thoughts Wish I had confidence to apologize If I did I can't even look in your sad eyes 'Cause whenever I do I start to cry Then whenever I cry I just wanna fucking hide Role models say all girls the same But you are not one bit the same You just wanted them kisses in the rain Now I'm left with regrets and pain I know you have a lot of problems Hoping I help to solve them And every second of time we spend I really don't want these memories to end You always plan our future ahead How I imagine it inside my head If we fail I'll feel dead And I'll feel trapped inside my head Love you loads especially your face Cheering me on while I race So in-love I'm in space And my heart tells me it's not a phase Wish I had confidence to apologize If I did I can't even look in your sad eyes 'Cause whenever I do I start to cry Then whenever I cry I just wanna fucking hide When I'm down I think about the ball How the ball made me fall Then you said Dan you're tall And six months later you accepted my call Still think about that pretty green dress How before when I was a mess When I stress I sit and reflect And sometimes wonder why you didn't reject Through all my troubles you had my respect And to this day your still perfect So this is my apology to you I know it's long 'cause I love you Can't forget you and Mchughs 'Cause everything I do I do for you Hopefully now I see you soon So we can joke about looking at the moon