Can't See Past 30

""Today is where your book begins,"" Natasha sang so sweetly, To the unwritten story Of 12-Year-Old Me. Now 25, with open eyes, And the chapters don't come clearly Cus the future's feeling hazy, lately. I scroll down my phone, Look at my friends, Think they've got life worked out. Meanwhile I'm here, Standing in fear, Head filled with so much doubt. And what I say next might sound weird, But it's something that I need to hear. Why can't I see myself past 30? Lowkey, it's making me worried. I'm tryna live inside this moment, But my fear has got me choking back tears Cus I don't know where I'll be, Cus I Can't See Past 30. I took off my rose-colored shades, And saw the world for how it's made. We draw up maps to find ways out Of all these bent and broken routes. Cus there's no perfect path to your""happily ever after,"" It has to come from within. Radiate from your soul out to your skin! Refresh my phone, Realize my friends and I don't have life worked out. Sometimes we're here, Standing in fear, Heads filled with so much doubt. Why can't I see myself past 30? Lowkey, it's making me worried. I'm tryna live inside this moment, But my fear has got me choking back tears Cus I don't know where I'll be, Cus I Can't See Past 30. I'm wrapped up in uncertainty, But I have hope we'll be ok! I just have a bit of anxiety about the future too, so hey! This'll be my coping mechanism, Let these feelings out of this prison cell, Build a heaven from personal hell. Refresh my phone, Realize my friends and I don't have life worked out. That's no big deal, Just let us feel our way out of this doubt. And what I say next might sound weird, But it's something that I need to hear. I don't need to see past 30, Lowkey it's making me worried. Cus we've got so much life to live, And we got so much left to give, That we don't need to know where we gotta be. So maybe... I don't wanna see past 30! Lowkey that's making me worried. Just let me live inside this moment, And through my fear I'll keep on hoping I'll find the place where I'm meant to be, But I can't see past 30.