Effervescent

A hole inside me There's no denying the Fear of running out of time Fear I missed the call The road behind me And those beside me All remind me I don't know anything Calcifying my trepidations Descend again into a darkness And it never seems to end The past mistakes resurface With the scars that remind me The strife ignites a resolution And a reason to contend To restore a sense of meaning And a healing inside me Some days just aren't worth saving I lost myself along the way Caught up in all the day to day Medicate and still I wallow Don't wanna be here anyway My soul is depleted Embrace the moment The fleeting life we borrow Is gone tomorrow I should've known it The pain I've felt inside me Was there to guide me To carry on And be as I've always meant A swan song Effervescent Though some days aren't worth saving The time will come another day I'll find myself along the way And the days I'm filled with sorrow That tears a hole inside of me I'll find my strength internally Through the torrents ahead When old pains hang in the air I'll survive the despair Vacillation ringing hollow It never mattered anyway I've found what I needed