show me something

If I loved myself a little more, I could've loved you less If I'd known to stop the bleeding, keep the wound all patched and dressed I could love again Bending backwards, cutting corners just to see you once again Nod my head and play pretend, remember to talk to my friends I want to love again You said I wasn't strong enough to love you So I begged God to show me mercy You said we weren't made to love each other While I begged you to show me something I walk alone, try to enjoy it, pay attention to my steps Mindfulness and therapists banging on closed doors in my head I want to love again Singing songs about moving on but they're so angry and I'm sad Like should I hate you? I don't hate you, really I just want you back I should rather die than have you back You said I wasn't strong enough to love you So I begged God to show me mercy You said we weren't made to love each other While I begged you to show me something Who am I without your love? Who am I if not in love? Am I just another lesson you won't learn until we're done? Who am I without your love? Who I am if not in love? Am I just another lesson you will use for your next one?