Soul on Ice

Hardest battle I done witnessed was my heart against my head Blessed to be alive but inside I'm feeling dead Heard Lil Jay up in that box and now I'm wishing that was me But a week before I told him ain't no love in them streets Hit the books and go to school, make it home in time to eat I'm trying to make it to the top around the corner from my peak Seen the blind lead the blind its ironic I can see Cause I done cried so many tears its like I'm standing in the sea I was dealing with some things I had to fix on my own I was fighting demons, end result I ran away from home Went to play in the jungles with the lions and gorillas Before a butterfly, you must be a caterpillar I can't forget who I am Pressured made personas, I was in it for the fans New state of mind best believe I'm chasing bands Diamonds cut precious just to flip it by the gram I made my money clean, but you know I got it out the mud Niggas really in it just to get up off your funds And to keep it real, I ain't really have no one to trust I broke the law and made a choice to put my faith in a gun Started running with them niggas who was bout that action But the money came between and broke them down like fractions I would never sell my soul for a piece of change I put my soul on ice and ever since I never been the same It's understood we never questioned how we came up When things got hard, I gripped the stick and switch my lane up I know they envy bout the way a nigga came up Influential niggas paved the way to get my bank up Lack of morals by young women shaking for the gram Spent nights in the desert drawing symbols in the sand Tried to go to sleep but it's hard to sleep through the pain As a kid without a coat, I still played in the rain This ain't Nike, you cant do this I know my niggas ruthless I'm moving like I'm booted And I'm praying like I'm Jewish Never lied when I said I came from the bottom But the bottom different for every nigga that started popping Now they wonder why I'm cold They can't wait to see me fold Lane switch but I'm still on the road Lean sip and I'm still in the zone