Call Me by My Name

Tonight I’m thinking slowly Tonight my heart beats fast Blistered and unholy I know just enough not to ask I catch a glimpse of you across the table You meet me with your ever knowing eyes I’m fronting for a publicized persona I’m trying to convince myself I’m fine I move with no intention Body on the line The only thing I can’t lose My reputation surely is alright Silently I beg for you to join me With everyone, or better all alone The thing I really struggle with is persons The grammar of a crowd and how it flows If you hear me would you find me? I’ve been wandering for days Begging for you to remind me Who I am, to call me by my name Potent, feeble, my reminders I am and the skin I wear I look at mirrors wearing blinders I’m somewhere but I’m never really there It scares me to no end to know you see me I do my very best to disappear I haven’t found a thing I could hide from you I’m somehow never lost when you are near If you hear me would you find me? I’ve been wandering for days Begging for you to remind me Who I am, to call me by my Call me by my—call me my real name