Remedy For Sadness

When I was three I lost my brother Died silent in his sleep When I was five my brother’s brother Said he wished that I would leave I keep waking with that voice Saying time to give in Televangelist replies "Boy just let the light in" I've been looking for a remedy for sadness The kind they write their books about That everybody has I keep hearing that it’s out there if I want it But I can barely make it out of bed sometimes So how is that for me? Two months after twenty-one we married in the yard Ten months later saw my daughter Held her in my arms I can’t push away this voice Asking how we got here I can’t hear you in the noise Saying hold me tight dear I've been looking for a remedy for sadness The kind they write their books about That everybody has I keep hearing that it’s out there if I want it But I can barely make it out of bed sometimes So how is that for me? Now I’m making all this money So why should I complain Isn’t this enough for anyone Can you really be so vain? Do you think that you deserve More than anybody else? No I promise that I don’t I just don’t want to hate myself I've been looking for a remedy for sadness The kind they write their books about That everyone else has I keep hearing that it’s out there if I want it But I can barely make it out of bed sometimes So how is that for me? How is that for me?