A Journey of Uncertainty (Insanity II)

The road was very cloudy Still I marched on Following a bitter, but inspiring song And at the end of roads I'd give all that is left in me To drive away these thoughts Of insanity My path was uncertain My direction unsure My feet had grown accustomed To the pain they'd endured And as my footing faltered My courage stayed upright Cause I knew I'd come too far To give up this time But the journey's far from over And hope is far away So I'll save all of my courage For another day Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same So I'll hold on to what's left And pray the rest is not insane So I'll choose to cast away My methods of escape And though they tempt me on The choice is mine to make Cause if I stay I will not find The change I need to see To rid myself these thoughts Of insanity But the journey's far from over And hope is far away So I'll save all of my courage For another day Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same So I'll hold on to what's left And pray the rest is not insane But the journey's far from over And hope is far away So I'll save all of my courage For another day Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same So I'll hold on to what's left And pray the rest is not insane (The rest is not insane) Don't wait, you cannot save me I won't stay, you'll only break me Don't wait, you cannot save me I won't stay, you'll only bring me pain But the journey's far from over And hope is far away So I'll save all of my courage For another day Cause even without darkness I am blinded just the same So I'll hold on to what's left And pray the rest is not insane The night is falling soon I haven't got a shelter made My thoughts deceive me I'm addicted to their ways I run in circles trying to find a better way To break out of the cell they've placed me in But here I remain I trust in fleeting things, no wonder they all run away I trust my instincts though they seem to always lead astray It's funny how pleasure runs a thin line with shame So I'll just watch as my ambitions bow to failure's new reign My mind was made for greater things, why do I choose this path The answers found in a creator I would never ask My shame enveloping my actions 'til they all collapse Insanity, it shadows any light I could have grasped And I'm letting my guilt start to define me It's hard to move forward when I'm still facing what's behind me And though I'm self-aware of sin that's taking over slowly Catering these lusts has always been the thing to blind me And that's why I'm starting to fall for my dreams They seem to live this life that I thought I was meant to lead They seem to dance this line between my wishes And what's real to me And if I say they're right Then I am dead to rights Of what happens in this reality I'm starting to peer through the seams Of this constructed shell of me It's sewn together ruggedly The scrapwork of my destiny There must be something more for me But every time I question, I am lessened To the point of insanity Be tame my spirit, for I need you to be worthy I am tired of returning to the urges of my body I'm dirty, I run to things that only seem to hurt me While still claiming I want more For the same soul that will deter me Be strong my beating heart You have endured more shameful things than this And I insist we mark ourselves for war Enlist into this battle we have created With our own self-indulgent bliss Perhaps we have been created For so much more than all of this (I just don't know anymore) (I mean, I've go all these questions swirling around) (I can't seem to find any of the answers) (Maybe I just haven't been looking in the right places, maybe) (Maybe they're just a little out of my reach, maybe) (There's gotta be more to all of this, right? There's got to be) (There's got to be something that I've missed) (Just got all these questions) (There's got to be something more to this) (There's got to be something more to all of this) (Or is it just insanity?)