The Desire To Be Normal

Let's start it then Song Four and I'm switching it up again Taking an old tune and serving it Here place your order and take a sit Recipe I'm changing it now with some subtly Making this flow sound so butterly So smooth in my tongue and it tastes like The one who will break through the mud Harmonies came to me Music telepathy Symphonies melodies waiting to burst out of my bubble And I promise I won't make it subtle Cause f*ck it Right now I wanna be normal But I know that's not eternal Music out of my heart and I star on this part Maybe I just need to fake it cause I want a great hit But how will I make it Sound so great cause I don't really like the Way it's turning out yet I would still like to try again to fake it Remake it to a real hit Dancing to the new beat It still feels incomplete Without a repeat To make the sound concrete To make you feel the heat So I'll swell you of your feet by rhyming Sometimes I feel like there's something fucked up inside me I know that's normal and that everybody feels like I do But that doesn't matter because when I stutter I fall into the rabbit hole And the deeper I fall the more alone that I become And this glass doesn't shatter a mirror of sower Snowballing my thoughts down road And I feel like I might lose control Because I did 2 days ago We were together in bed cuddling hugging kissing oo wee Shit was rad and it felt like a scene from a movie The end of a fairytale Happily ever after The sail was done Or at least that's how I imagined it was to her But you know me I like to be alone in my own world And I want you with me by my side but sometimes I take it slow And I felt like I was suffocating Too much touch now hyper veiling Suffering from success because the way you looked at me Was a look I didn't know of Obsessive but full of love Like nothing else matters beside us lovers desires The fire had started and I've been crying for hours And I'm sure that you did to I'm sorry that we went through this shit I don't know why that look has bothered me so much I don't know why I'm so afraid of too much touch I'm sorry but it's just a part of me that I cant turn off I know it's a big turn off for you please just follow Maybe it's because I find it hard to love myself And then you come by with your perfect smile and make me feel so safe And then you love me so much it makes you look crazy I'm sorry that's not on you that's on me I'm falling And I fucked up And I sit here waiting for my thoughts to shut up Waiting for the messages to show up The message that will make me or break me The message that will define us What is normal when the power is held by those that make us sour Planing with their Midas touch and making this world go on fire Celebrating levatating Private planes and silver linings Waiting for the day that they could rape the earth and make some profit We still vote for the same old leaders White old man that makes us trigger Maybe I'll make you consider To try and stop the fever Why is it normal people fire people on the field? Because 2 old dudes refused to peace Because the good old news said that we were weak Because the people chose their death over faith in the ones who differ Because there are people who profit when the people ether F*ck this old order Change is eteranl Pain in the future Desire to be normal