BEFORE I EVER...

Yeah, yeah All the possibilities Trust me, I've imagined them all Every single one of them Yeah Yeah They say, Hill, why you been quiet for so long Say, cause I'm tryna have these bitter bitches cryin' to these songs I want that feelin' that you felt to feel like dyin' all along I hope you never think it's peace, cause it's been silence all along I hope you never get to sleep, I hope you never catch a wink I hope the way you get me dirty, haunt forever in your dreams I hope that everything you give yourself is never self-esteem And everything that's good for you is never what it seems And everything you think you need is never what you need And when you try to give it back, you see you lost your damn receipts I hope you never make it, I hope you see my field of dreams Exceede like seven acres, while you bein' scammed by like twelve Jamaicans Never leave, like the way you did or you get to see the petty me You was right on top of this D, I had you letter C Knew me A to Z, read my spirit like a spellin' B How you dog me out at this pedigree, I never know You keep holdin' onto the trauma, gotta let it go Gang was movin' O's since Obama talkin, let it snow It's a lot of shit that I trip about, but never hoes I put commas over the X and O's Yes and no, I'm the one, but not the one you wanna test for sure I take anxiety over Lexapro Niggas gotta slide for they blood, the way that Dexter Morgan Did I lift the tool up like tech support on the less important Many orphans came from this pen, I legibly write abortions Many lessons came from the sinners, they pray for blessings often My aggression built up since adolescence, my past was tension They'll be catchin' up for the next millennium on all my blessings Good intentioned, mixed with my nature as pensive Mixed with the fact that I can't get over the fact I get mentioned Anytime these niggas play the blame game Blame the man who's doin' things Half of who they cool with I put two in like a shooting range Half my brothers geeked and pushin' keys like they computer came So trust me, if it's you to blame, it's soon that your medulla hang This shit we holdin' nowadays, get spins that look like hurricanes Countin' up the wins while catchin' wind of what they wanna say Man, everything he got is in his mother's name These niggas only activate the plays when all they brothers came These niggas only hard cause life was hard and they was runaways He down to do some years, I know the tears is just a hug away I know these niggas bitch made on the fifth day I'ma rise on em, poppin' out on niggas like arrangin' a surprise for em Hoes still hit my lineup to facilitate a vibe for em I just get my lineup, I'm inside, but I'm a top four Killer on the outdoors Still I make her body, turn the water and it downpours Bitty out the South Bronx Big from paintin' pictures of the city, think he Bob Ross Eastside nigga down to hit em with the south paw Enough with all the long lies We not livin' long lives Before I ever do, I let the song cry Even when I lost mines, even when they crossed lines Knew that gettin' even wouldn't seem to take a long time Enough with all the long lies We not livin' long lives I'ma let them niggas live where love dies Smoke until my lungs fry We not livin' long lives Before I ever, before I ever, ever