Realization

Yeah I finally realized I just had to see through Gods eyes Now I know In him, I find my peace of mind Yeah he never left me after all this time Okay been thinking lately as I'm sipping drinking this water Got my own team I ain't worried about being a starter Mama wanna retire early so I'm really tryna go harder But the feelings that I have been facing It feel like they holding me back when I'm tryna go farther I'm tryna love me despite all the times I've been broken Be outspoken when I'm feeling emotion Though it may feel like I drown in the ocean I know where my hope is And I will never depart like a lotus I'm focused on building me up when I'm sulking My demons they tempting me to be the old me and spaz on Alexa Cause I've been so broken Why would you leave in my time of need actually Why would you leave and then still be all close to me Act like were dating but don't got a title so every late convo we turned into rivals And I let you go but I can't lie there's a part of me that's wants to see you cry Cause I took the blame when you told lies and when I was depressed I apologized Make it make sense That is some Nah I know I'm better than this Sending out love only Cause it's what I needed But to you, I guess my love was just a game And that's crazy Real crazy Now my love for you is kinda fading I could never do the hate thing But I hate that I love you man that's aching it's so draining Yeah I finally realized I just had to see through Gods eyes Now I know In him, I find my peace of mind Yeah he never left me after all this time Okay been thinking lately as I'm sipping drinking this water Got my own team I ain't worried about being a starter Dad moving back home soon so I'm really tryna go harder But the distance that I have been facing It feels like it's holding me back when I'm tryna go farther Don't always do what I ought to I been working on my problems Though it's hard Imma solve em I put that on everything I'm on the winning team Took an L but I bounced back like Big Sean This new stuff is my old stuff so you don't know what I've been on I know I made mistakes I was looking for brighter days But the way I found happiness it was me who got pushed away And my faith has been broken But I see God in my ocean I'm floating Hoping and praying that you help me as I'm coping Yeah I finally realized I just had to see through Gods eyes Now I know In him, I find my peace of mind Yeah he never left me after all this time Yeah yeah One more Aye 25 gotta thank God for another year cause I didn't deserve it He filled my soul up with purpose So now I'm determined to work it Still struggle with churches And I'm just being honest Working through my problems Been an optimist with pessimist thoughts I'm tryna think back on the scriptures they taught I think I unlearned them when mom and dad fought Okay and I'm feeling good as of recently Tryna be more than an artist but seeking the Heavenly Father To alter their hearts with my words But I'm praying to God that they reaching me What I mean I'm reaching to you as I'm reaching to God But I'm realizing not close as I thought Dang I'm realizing not close as I thought