still dreaming about you

Several years gone - sleep don't lie Close my eyes, you pass me by Woke up tangled in the sheets Your shadow moving through the heat I heard your laugh, the hallway light But reached for you - you're gone each night Thought I let the silence win But you show up when dreams begin I'm still dreaming above you Caught in skies I can't break through Not in love - at least, I think But I'm back here every blink I swore I healed, I swore I knew But every night, I fall right through I'm still dreaming above you So what now... what now is true? Daylight holds a steady pace But night still wears your face I burned the notes, I changed my name But in my sleep, it's all the same I said I'm fine - I said I'm clear Then why the hell are you still here? I'm still dreaming above you Trapped in skies I can't push through Not in love - but I still sting You haunt the smallest, quietest things I swore I healed, I thought I grew But every night, I fall back through I'm still dreaming above you So what now... what now is true? Maybe you're not the message Maybe I'm the ghost Of a love that couldn't carry What it needed most Is this love or a bruise that grew? Am I chasing me - or chasing you? I'm still dreaming above you And I wish that I could undo All the nights I drift and dive In the shell of a half-lived life I swore I healed, I swore I knew But every night, I break back through Still dreaming above you What now - what now is true? So I bless the dreams that bring you near Then let you fade, year after year You were a chapter, not the whole Just one echo in my soul I'm done chasing what I outgrew And I'll dream now in skies brand new Still dreaming - but not of you