Addicted

I look back thinking damn I was the man Now I'm just another wannabe, scrolling through the gram Liking all the pictures of my post to be peers Who I'm supposed to be around, now I'm just a fucking fan I feel empty, goddamn I need to make a move shit, I need to make a plan Only problem is I done went through every plan Plan A, B, C, X, Y, Z and still tryna make amends I need to flip the page, start a new chapter Not rewrite what's there, what's written is written Don't dwell on the past If you keep looking back shit you bound to crash I fiend for your presence, but I hate that that is true I fiend for all your lessons, I'm addicted to you I need to feel you with me, but I hate to see the truth I hate to have you with me, but I love the way I feel when you're here I look back thinking now I am the man I was a bitch, I was scared but that was back then I found myself, or something close to that F*ck it I let it in and now I'm here It unleashed a new zone shit I thought I was alone I thought I'd be stuck at the bottom since then I have grown DonMt know if I could ever move on I'm too strong I pick up a pen and feel stronger than before Stuck inside my head again, needed to get confident Now fucking up a pen again Fucking up my friendships off all the shit I said to them I feel confident, but too much confidence is bad, I guess I learned that shit I fiend for your presence, but I hate that that is true I fiend for all your lessons, I'm addicted to you I need to feel you with me, but I hate to see the truth I hate to have you with me, but I love the way I feel when you're here