Bottom of the Barrel

I really came from the bottom, piss bottom This guy will, show you how to piss proper If I mistake your kindness for hate, I'm still kinda In my bag from days when I still got nada I done did all the things I thought were proper I was wrong, I'm still at zero after hours Still at zero after days I'm still tryna figure out how to get out of this barrel that I'm caught up in Hold up quick, I roll my spliff And try to get as high as the clouds, high as can get Still tryna get lit, I'm finding my niche I still pray everyday that I'm here I still pray everyday I live I still pray everyday that I take a breath I'm still sane, or I think I am I've been through it all, but this hurts the most You put your all into this and then it crumbles it up I still pray for better days Cause I wanna see better days Still remember sweating plays Now I get em all, but I feel the same F*ck I cannot deal with this shit, it's stuck in my head again Happier than happy and sadly I can't enjoy this shit Something fucking up my brain, and I can't shake this shit I pray and pray and pray again, just praying for an answer, yes Still ain't got an answer yet Stressed, upset, but won't admit my head too thick Your words they miss, admit defeat that's the worst it gets Words don't mean nothing to me, you might as well go show it then Everybody say to reach out, till it's they phone I hit Alone again, fighting in this war zone Hoping I get close and win, if I don't win I'm stuck inside this trance I'm in Team told me don't worry, I'll be back, but that ain't facts I'm still solo and I'm down for the pin I'm getting real dark thoughts nowadays Hoping I can just break out this cage Hoping that it don't end this way Need help but my ego won't let me speak I still pray everyday that I take a breath I'm still sane, or I think I am I've been through it all, but this hurts the most You put your all into this and then it crumbles it up I still pray for better days Cause I wanna see better days Still remember sweating plays Now I get em all, but I feel the same