Alive :(

(When you wake up, right, in the morning) (And when you go about your day) (And, and, who you are, right?) (This is, this is how I do my day) (I know that the hardest person) (The toughest boss that I've ever had in my life is myself) (And my level of consciousness tells me this) (I say, well, when I get up in the morning, I'll know I want my day to have certain things) (You following what I'm saying?) (So I, I'll lay out that formula, right?) (And then at the end of the day, I'll see how close I was to that) (How close I was to being my own boss) Meditate to stop all of the brain fog Logged out and turned Instagram off God whispered, "Take all of them chains off" F*ck I spend three hunnid thousand on a Range for? Validation, what I used to aim for Tried to hide the shame with the fame, y'all Got guilt that drove a nigga insane, y'all Suicide became one of my main thoughts Uber X-ing bitches for a nightcap Addicted to the pussy, learning how to fight that Jogging in the dark, had to get my psych back Can't heal these injuries with a ice pack Let me head to therapy and I'll be right back I feel alive now, I'm on the right track Million dollar deal, really looking type whack Man, I'm tryna buy the Beatles like I'm Mike Jack' Like I'm Mike Jack' Man, I'm tryna buy the Beatles like I'm Mike Jack' Shh, be quiet They gon' f*ck around and have to pull a mic jack Stay tuned into the frequency, love, love Yeah, ah You know we be really Uptown I'm 'bout to start making emojis titles Uptown, Uptown, Uptown It say, "Talk your shit" Uptown, Uptown, Uptown But I'm just tryna, I'm just tryna I'm tryna find a f*ck to give about this rap shit in this rigged game Treat us like slaves, hand us whips and a big chain It's funny how they call masters, "Masters" 'Cause if they own yours, they making money after you die Generation gap at my shows Gotta feed the little kids more, other the Fergie flows Been ducking all the drugs, I been fucking all the hoes Tryna figure out how to fill this hole up in my soul Tryna figure out how to stop all the want Can you be a rapper and live your life like a monk? I wanna be like Future and drop every month But if it ain't the vision, God holding my tongue It's about instant gratification these days Which leave us feeling worthless, no matter the age As I get more aware, it's hard to stay engaged When you notice all your peers ain't on the same page Yeah (you know we be really Uptown) uh-huh I got more shit to say (Uptown, Uptown, Uptown) Lemme scroll down Hold up, I'ma tell you why I'm unhappy (Uptown, up) I'm unhappy about music in its current state I'm unhappy about my appetite and my current weight I'm unhappy about my friends and how they handle certain things Growing pains make it stressful to go through certain change I ever tell you get a job, I ain't tryna be lame You gotta try everything before you ask me for change Money don't grow on trees, especially with the fame 'Cause if the ship ever sink, you will tarnish my name And act like you was never a part of the blame I crippled you by getting you apartments and rings When a little bit of struggle can make the hustle engrain It's treacherous waters taught you how to swim, but it's hard to sustain, stay afloat Coming out Uptown, Uptown, Uptown Uptown, Uptown, Uptown Stay tuned into the frequency, love, love