Blame

Trying hard to understand but it gets harder I miss school, I'd sit in Harvard not to get bothered By Miss Chopper shooting at my ribs, I live proper But we all make mistakes, and mistakes can live longer Tried to fish farther, but every time I cast, it gets darker She gon' miss on everything that my wrist offers I don't wish problems on any woman I meet 'Cause every woman I meet, one day I hope I can treat They say don't fall in love with the first woman that speaks to me But I can't help but make her feel like she's something special to me So let me vent calmer, I put my arm in like I'm Vince Carter Tried to drag you out but you just sit, collared Like you feel like you deserved to be punished in a slim locker Taking limp offers, I'm just tired of being a missed caller (Yeah) And I swear this shit will hurt, I hope that this joint hit harder I gotta tip smarter, 'cause they treat me like some shit starter She left me in the dirt without knowing that I could hit bottom I saw her hips rocking, and I read her lips often But when she went outside my view, committing wasn't in her I planned out all the dinners, made her feel like she's a winner But when I showed my pain, I damn near turned into a sinner Another week another check I'm running out of patience, so I'll run another set I'm running out of breath, so my air I must protect All my life I've been finessed, thinking how I am the best 'Cause I gave my everything to make it out the fucking bottom Of the mess I ended up in when they said I was the forgotten Now I'm trying to be her star, but she only f*ck with the fallen That will break her heart and make her hit the bottle Now she's posting as a model And what followed is that she finding debacles that she can't solve Only knows a few that she can pass off to But I'm sitting in my booth, I can rap my ass off But it won't lead me to her hand, so I'm making anthems About a man who has it all, but no one he can share it with Beware it's him, the one who wants you to be fair and rich That's why I stare, and I stare again 'cause I can't bear to live To watch you in apartments when I'd give you all the space I've earned Born to face the burn I made a turn, but I loop back into to vacant words I hate to hurt But I had to risk it all 'til I break and burst Now I'm starting over lost, had to wait for her Waiting for her