Own Way

She's going her own way Now I'm down, but I can't be losing out So I had to look out for my own way She's going her own way Now I'm down, but I can't be losing out So I had to look out for my own way I'm right back in it So I'ma need a minute To find out what I'm getting My eyes becoming tinted Lost track of what I'm sipping I'm mixing, then I'm mixing I have to keep on living I have to keep on winning My father asks me all the time if I could buy a ticket I gamble in her mentions, while he gambles in the trenches So what's the difference, when we're nowhere close to what we're fishing But we're in it 'til it's over, so much behind our shoulders My words, I had to show her, I told her that I know her Try hard to never scold her, 'cause then I'm falling lower This rate, I'll never be sober, I'm drunk while playing poker Won't give, go find a donor, too real to not admit it She's pulling on my strings, I'm knitted, she really did it No cap, don't want to wear a fitted, too proud to rep a city Was born in a home that I never visit, I always drifted To somewhere new, was told to change, but I grew up rigid, I get it when She's going her own way Now I'm down, but I can't be losing out So I had to look out for my own way She's going her own way Now I'm down, but I can't be losing out So I had to look out for my own way I hear her dreams out But I wish I never felt that I was pulling teeth out Got busy putting up my numbers, now I'd like a recount If she never says a word, it's 'cause I never reached out I'm going through it in a city I've never been I'm looking for medicine Unwanted adrenaline No point in being a gentleman When they want the pain because it's part of their regimen So tell me what the f*ck I'm supposed to do with my second wind My groove I can settle in, I move in the present tense Delete all the messages, I'm vacating the premises I had a bone to pick, but I'm now stuck with a skeleton I've been around the world and still I find mine developing I'm often out of sight so I'll crash the party and make my intros I'll set the tempo, read my memos, don't know what I'm getting into But I got to be fine with that I might attract someone who wants to write me back Saying she knows my struggle, and wants to recline it back She's going her own way Now I'm down, but I can't be losing out So I had to look out for my own way She's going her own way Now I'm down, but I can't be losing out So I had to look out for my own way