Ashamed

I wonder if your friends Will ever ask about me anymore Or if they wonder why I just stopped coming around Or did I disappear Like nothing ever happened here Oh, God forbid you let the secret out And I grew all my roots In you now I can't pull them out And then I let you poison me With all your foolish doubt And even when I shouldn't have I still felt so proud of you But it's such a shame That you were so ashamed of me And I'm a fool for holding on so long And I am blaming you For this change in me 'Cause I can't shake it Even though you're gone I thought I might be feeling even Just a little better now But every day just hurts the same And though the months fly by I feel like I'm stuck in time And you're stuck In my blood and in my veins So I won't take apologies now That you've got the time Why should you get closure When you never gave me mine? And I can't fucking move on But you're probably just fine But it's such a shame That you were so ashamed of me And I'm a fool for holding on so long And I am blaming you For this change in me 'Cause I can't shake it Even though you're gone You told me I had shown How it should feel To really be in love But I have never Felt more worthless Than I did in our last months You told me I had shown How it should feel To really be in love But I have never Felt more worthless But it's such a shame That you were so ashamed of me And I'm a fool for holding on so long And I am blaming you For this change in me 'Cause I can't shake it Even though you're gone