Being Toxic

She not respondin', sent a question mark, I fear she doin' me wrong But who am I to say shit, I gave her hell when she needed me the most That's the reason I'm alone I push people away, how can't you tell You comin' back with hope, hope that we make it I can tell your ass right now this ain't gon' go in your favor Tell all your girl friends that I was your favorite I still don't know how I was the worst that you got did I gave this hope again Another one fell back again That tell me i'm 100% the problem I'm judged off my bodies, in love with bein' toxic Wont never have none real, cause I still keep around my options Won't never have none real cause I still f*ck around I'm pushin' you away, cause I'm too scared for me to let you down I'm tellin' you stop chasin' me, your friends tell you you chase a clown(Chase a clown) You should listen to them after all they not gon' hurt you in the end After all they not gon' do you wrong, after all they not gon' lead you on I can't make no promises I won't All I bring to you is tears, you say you like the moments that we lived told me anything for them flashbacks, you gon' really take that risk? She want the last back, she want the part when we was here She had her suicidal moments, I made her comfortable to live Said the reason that she want this back, push her away, she comin' back She said the heart to heart was just so real Your new nigga, you better off with him He fill a role I can't His mind ain't filled with shame and plus he everything I ain't See people love to forget the shit you did for them in vain What you rather me not make it and be lame? What you rather me not make it and disappoint who on my chain?My own people thinkin' I'm fake, but it was time I needed change I hate I gotta push you away cause you was there when it was rainin' It's best for both of us if I just leave cause we was clangin' I gave this hope again Another one fell back again That tell me i'm 100% the problem I'm judged off my bodies, in love with bein' toxic Wont never have none real, cause I still keep around my options We was just so real, you was right there when I was dead broke Going through issues on my own, I was lonely and had no hope Would barely pick up my phone, makin' music was my way to cope You offered me those times, so who was I to tell you no Only one to let me vent Why the f*ck I do you wrong, you was right there when I lost my friend Don't need life any harder, you see we work the hardest I got enough problems already judged behind my skin I gave this hope again Another one fell back again That tell me i'm 100% the problem I'm judged off my bodies, in love with bein' toxic Wont never have none real, cause I still keep around my options