Wondering Why?

Life can be much broader once you discover one simple fact And that is, everything around you that you call life was made up by people that were no smarter than you And you can change it Uh, she left me alone and i'm wondering why They ain't (Cenat) comin they calling me kai I'm sorry, I know I've been texting you dry I've been thinking about you, but the cash got my eye Today, I'm trying to go up and run up a thousand I remember them days, I ain't know what that looked like I was baggin them just off the shit I was saying Whole time, the bitch ain't even know what I look like You told me to stop hugging the block I said why Would've listened to you if I knew you would die Would've listened to you if I knew you was leaving Now I gotta think of that shit when I'm grieving Our goal was to run that shit up, now you gone Can you help me, I still be sad off the don I'm working and shit, and staying strong for my mom Avoiding my feelings and staying out of drama You preach you was with me, but what was you at Depression be fucking me up, I'm just like what's next I be sad, that's why I'm avoiding your texts Really In two years, I won't know who gon' be left In two years, I won't know who gon' be here Shit I'm not even knowing if I'm gon' be here We argue so much, cause your feelings is clear That's the reason we been up and down all year I tell you, be safe when you leave out the crib I got PTSD, people not coming back When you was down in the hospital, I was right there by your side The doctor was sugar coating you was dying I know that I'm posed to be strong But how can I help him if I'm losing my mind too Losing you, I lost a part of me too Ian gon lie ian know what to do She left me alone and im wondering why They ain't (Cenat) comin they callin me kai I'm sorry, I know I've been texting you dry I've been thinking about you, but the cash got my eye Today, I'm trying to go up and run up a thousand I remember them days, I ain't know what that looked like I was baggin her just off the shit I was saying Whole time, the bitch aint even know what I looked like I wasn't even sober when I said I love you I remember we met your friends ain't want me cuff you I just wanted to know you, I aint want to f*ck you It was something about you wasn't hard for the trust you Sorry that I've been so bad at trust Self sabotaging to avoid being crushed Gon take me a minute to really shake back I'm sorry, my love life used to be fucked She left me alone and im wondering why They ain't (Cenat) comin they callin me kai I'm sorry, I know I've been texting you dry I've been thinking about you, but the cash got my eye Today, I'm trying to go up and run up a thousand I remember them days, I ain't know what that looked like I was baggin her just off the shit I was saying Whole time, the bitch aint even know what I looked like