Counting To Breath

Clouded mind I'm tired of life Everything's a routine we survive Sleep and eat eat and sleep Same patterns on the wall so bleak So bleak Same pictures in my head Thoughts don't change in this bed A mess on the table mess in my head Silence on the phone emotions unstable One two three four five Counting numbers to feel alive Six and seven eight nine ten Just trying to breathe again How dare you say those lies Made me cry with empty eyes Turned around said goodbye Oh my gosh I feel so dry How dare you say those lies Made me cry with empty eyes Turned around said goodbye Oh my gosh I feel so dry Feeling dumb I can't deny Had to hear your alibi Screams in my head so loud Silence never felt so proud I'm drowning in the water the waves cover my head Again and again don't let me swim to the top I'm feeling dead Pressure's pulling me under I can barely breathe Struggling to rise but the current won't leave Each gasp for air is a fight I can't win Darkness all around pulling me back in Every time I break the surface another wave comes Knocking me down making my body feel numb Lost in the depths can't see the light Trapped in this struggle no end in sight One two three four five Counting numbers to feel alive Six and seven eight nine ten Just trying to breathe again Counting numbers sinking below In this endless dark there's no glow Step by step I'm losing my way In this life I'm not okay The anxiety consumes it's here to stay Lost in the chaos I can't find the light of day How dare you say those lies Made me cry with empty eyes Turned around said goodbye Oh my gosh I feel so dry How dare you say those lies Made me cry with empty eyes Turned around said goodbye Oh my gosh I feel so dry Feeling dumb I can't deny Had to hear your alibi Screams in my head so loud Silence never felt so proud I 'm sinking below In this endless dark there's no glow Step by step I'm losing my way In this life I'm not okay The anxiety consumes it's here to stay Lost in the chaos I can't find the light of day