Grown

Walking through the crowd I'ma keep my head down Till I bust a fake smile No one ever cares, so that's why I never share What's going on in my mind I say I'm doing good, I say I'm doing fine It's really all lies If I told you how I felt, it'd be awkward as hell So I keep it all quiet No, I don't wanna go to the show or another club tonight No, I don't wanna drink till I throw up, what's inside And I know that I used to be the one who'd party all the time But I've grown and I know what I want and it's all mine 30s is hitting me, honestly that shit is killing me I'm not impressed like I used to be, ugh The money is useless, see It's really the thing that's deppressing me The stress release, the best relief, the wins and losses get to me By 33, I plan to be retired on the island on a yacht out with my family We on the beach, it's not a dream, manifesting destiny Sometimes life don't take you on the journey that you plan to be but plan for me No, I don't wanna go to the show or another club tonight No, I don't wanna drink till I throw up, what's inside And I know that I used to be the one who'd party all the time But I've grown and I know what I want and it's all mine