Bipolar

I'm bipolar like New Jersey weather One day I want it, then I don't Why is it every time you see me You just wanna lay up and smoke I don't really got the time Time for me to let it go Get the f*ck up off my line, already told you You should really get to knowing better This right here this ain't no phase Might be stuck like this forever Might be stuck up in a cage Girl, the way I'm stuck up in my ways shame I'm tryna change though Forget my name I ain't walking with no halo Still sinning, still losing, still winning Still lying, still truth spilling I'm a good villain dog Aye I said I'm a good villain dog Still true to my roots Still opening my mind Learning to manage my time I can't fit it all Still rocking with the same crew Aint nobody brand new It's funny cause I still can't f*ck with y'all Money, on my, mind All the, time I cannot change up What they want from me Love, money, I done gave up Know you see a dollar sign when you see you me Used to think that we was blood times so revealing Had my back against wall head towards the ceiling I was losing faith but I am greater than my feelings Tireda feelin like a burden to the people that’s around me Every time I speak up man I feel like they jus clown me Think that they above me so they turn around and down me Next day it’s all good but truth is They bipolar like New Jersey weather One day they want me then they don’t Why is it when I just wan talk you girl be thinking I want smoke I just be communicating you be thinkin it’s a joke How I’m supposed to clear my mind When you don’t listen and you act like you don’t know no better I ain’t even tryna front Swear I thought that we was closer Guess this just ain’t what you want I was hopin we would last This ain’t really I what I want You ain’t who I thought you was You ain’t who I thought you was I’ve been thinkin I’ve been sippin Smokin blunts Said I’d switch to papers Yeah I said that more than once Said I’d stick to paper Insteada chasing love But here I am again Giving way too many fucks I gave way too much love out Thinkin I would get it back but that ain’t how it works out I gave way too much game out Thinkin I would get my credit but that ain’t how it works out I been in my lane I can’t turn now You want me to change and reverse now I can’t help but stick up both my middle fingers Bitch I’m up and you sleep I woke up before ringer Now they ringin up my line Cause I’m so ahead of time Money could never change me It just opened my eyes I just wanna realize all my dreams in real life And just know when you see me you ain’t seeing no disguise