Side Chick

Side Chick CHAOS You had the thickness of a mistress Overused and misused like ideas off of Pinterest But I didn't mind Cause your mind caught my interest Your bright ideas had festered my formers I left my old cornerstone of ideas on life To be sold on random corners like prostitution Had me bidding against my union Cause she wanted matrimony But we saw the mattress only Guilty mixed with feeling phony Had me lying side by side with my side chick Thinking bout my main chick Thinking maybe if I tell myself I'm polygamist It will take away from my guilt trips And make me feel like I'm tapping into my roots that are indigenous My conscious is calcified Kiss my main chick on her cheek Tasting her invisible cries That once rested there As I go over to my side chick's house Just to rest up there Thinking surely she is okay with it Because I heard her muted yes As I smiled back at her when I left And she felt my muted urge To go and f*ck with someone That was opposite of her See she was what I wanted When I was Who I was But even I don't know that person anymore Side Chick ORDER Change Grow Develop I still struggle within myself when looking at situations thinking Did I change from who I was Did I grow into who I am now Or did I develop what I am now Not just in relationships is this evident But also when discovering oneself and individuality It can be chaotic and problematic causing you to hurt those close to you And the closest person to you Which is yourself Learn to communicate that change, growth, or development that you're experiencing Rather it be a change in your diet, spirituality, religious view, family structure, career, sexual appetite, etc Voice it out to them They might agree that it's best to separate If the change is greatly opposing and uncompromising Or they might endure in the new experience with you Happily