depersonalization

Mirror, mirror on the wall Who's the realest of them all ? Looking at myself in the mirror Losing sense of self just keeps getting clearer This body isn't me, I know I am something bigger But who is it who knows ? The answer's somewhere deeper Lookin' at myself And my self ain't going higher Lookin' in my soul And my soul ain't goin' either All there is is me Not every cell or every fibre Every thing I am aware of is the only thing in matter If everything ends, why does anything matter ? This spiritual path was supposed to bring me answers But the questions are arising And the mountain I was climbing Is a tunnel where I'm crawling In the darkness, deep I'm diving Ain't no lighting, really I don't feel shit I'm all alone up in this bitch Do I even want kids to grow up in this shit ? Never asked to be born and I'm supposed to make you proud ? Yeah I'm talking to my father, many traumas left unfound Many traumas left in me With which I don't deal peacefully So I guess this is them in me Hunting me, killing in me, fighting me Winning me, taking me, using me, leaving me, Illing me, filling me, stripping me of my own identity I don't wanna live a steady life So much left for me need to realize I don't wanna live by the gun but my foes are No hoes or woes gonna help me out I don't wanna live a steady life So much left for me need to realize I don't wanna live by the gun but my foes are No hoes or woes gonna help me out Lead me home Lead me home Lead me home Lead me home Oh lord live inside me Lead me on my way Oh lord live inside me Lead me on my way Oh lord in the darkness Lead me on my way Oh lord in the darkness Lead me on my way Mmh Oh lord heaven's waiting Open up your door Oh lord heaven's waiting Open up your door Oh lord live inside me Lead me on my way Oh lord live inside me Lead me on my way Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lord lead me home Lord- lord lead home Lead me home