Entry 8: Disappointment

Get me out of sync with the beat of this mundane life I want more I always want more But I'm never more Because my skill and my passion won't meet I let myself down again Or so I made myself think I'm waking and breathing and crying and singing And forcing the ink in my pen Stuck in this repeat I'm dragging my feet here again Trying to write to give purpose to life But I think that I will never win I've made it through half of a year I was so much stronger before I knew better And could live inside my own skin Just get me out I'm drowning asleep in my tears Alright just enough to get out of my bed But sometimes I wish I wasn't here I'm a little better each day Still chasing the dream but I break easily When I look the opposite way Just get me out