and as always, parts 1-3

Incessantly thinking Resounding chambers deep within I echo all the filth Send it back and forth And back and forth So i Silently drift through days Pick through these walls around me Everyone lives uncomfortably Most of the time But i can no longer Keep to myself Until i found you I see you in thoughts I knew you were lost Just waiting for the sun But hoping for the rain If I could lose everything, I'd keep this one moment I would have made it all just so and no different I can feel myself gliding over you Your hair in my hands, we're tangled together Just us and no one else With every song I hear, you linger on my mind Silhouettes appear on my bedside I know that you're mine Gaze upon me with half-lidded eyes I fall apart and collapse into you What's the purpose of these arms if not for me to hold you? Should I reach my hand out if you aren't there to take it? I wanted to peel back all your layers We lost ourselves in the arches and folds Both our crooked smiles staring back at each other With every song I hear, you linger on my mind Silhouettes appear on my bedside I know that you're mine Gaze upon me with half-lidded eyes I fall apart, collapse into you I love you With my whole entire soul And body And being You are so perfect and kind You are a blessing on this earth I am so glad I met you Just letting you know Goodnight my love And i wanted to take so many pictures of you But as i look back at the few old photos of us The ceiling light that illuminated you our first time Is now warping over the non-level film Contorting within the frames and blocking out the one face i needed to see The smile i know all too well And your soft black sweater the resting place for my scarred hands The hands that only you saw the value in The hands you love to touch You are alone You've severed ties I'm on the edge I waited for you And since you've gone Don't know what i Am meant to see Except your shadow I had a dream Of our last time I saw your face And sadly smiled We locked our eyes And rejoined hands Then i woke up And wept and missed you What do i get in return for what i gave to you? Emptied out to the core and rotten Once simple thoughts turned to complicated questions Left unanswered and unassured Disappeared without a trace or explanation You took everything i had to give and threw it all aside There's a dead space beside me that you've left unfilled And what's the purpose of these arms if not for me to hold?