black swan

I don't know what I thought about before I met you You're in my head and I want to forget you But I've become dependent on your presence I'm in too deep, I think I care about you too much Separation's coming, going right through us It's been a while since my name rattled around in your head all day I'd like to think it still does but I can't say Cause I realized too late but it stopped a while ago Guess you forgot me Your heart was in another place when you dropped me And you've been doing fine but I can't seem to shake the thought of you I wish it didn't end, wish you didn't lose your feelings Nowadays I just stare at the ceiling And I haven't moved past you It's been long enough Surely I shouldn't be dumb and get hung up But you really took a toll on me You know I wish you could see I guess I'm not good enough but we both know who is And I've been tryna move on But you're just a black swan Dancing round in my head, messing me up inside Can't hold back from the what-ifs and the hypotheticals You complicated me through all your lies Why can't I stop this And you don't seem interested anymore I feel like at any time you'll walk out the door And I'll be left alone again So why not tell me that I'm not your number one And make it clear cause my head's already spun Out of control with overthinking and I'm stuck wondering why I can't get it right I know I'm pushing you away but try as I might I don't know the way back into your heart You've moved on months ago And I'm feeling bad cause I'm at an all-time low But you really took a toll on me You know I wish you could see I guess I'm not good enough but we both know who is And I've been tryna move on But you're just a black swan Dancing round in my head, messing me up inside Can't hold back from the what-ifs and the hypotheticals You complicated me through all your lies Why can't I stop