the end (losing you)

We're at a stalemate now A draw, a tie, we wonder why We cant seem to stop hurting each other We both want what's best for one another Maybe you were the right person at the wrong time I'll never forget how happy I was in our prime (But we both blame ourselves for our downfall) And it hurts to hear your fantasies about the perfect person I thought I was fine but my health worsened And sometimes I still wonder if I could've done more to keep you around Loving you is a battle I can't win It's unhealthy and my walls are caving in Should I isolate myself and never hear from you again Do I want to cherish every second that we spend And I feel like I'm trapped I know you get sad when I do too I want to be honest but it's hurting you I don't want to do anything to make you upset And you want me to open up but I say things I regret I can say all this now and feel how I feel Then I see you again and it instantly heals It's a vicious cycle Your words are kind but your actions are spiteful My resentment towards you instantly drowns in a sea of the sound of your voice Your beautiful face and everything about you strings me along, not by choice I need it to stop, or else I'll be under your spell forever and I want it to end I want it to end I can't really blame you for your attraction towards others And it's okay that you don't want me as your lover And I'll deal with the fact you went after him And because of you I'm the worst I've ever been You were the reason I compared myself to his likeness I thought you'd be the one to help me fight this I don't know what you want, you've made it clear it's not me So go find someone else to fulfill your needs And do whatever you want, guess I was holding you back You chipped away at me until I finally cracked You've mistreated me and hurt me consistently You've done too much so I'm wondering if this can be My final words to you: you're the reason for my sadness The person I was before you faded to blackness I'm no longer happy every day Everything might as well be a moody gray You say you want to help me so I can stop this But your inside jokes with him make me nauseous Stupidly, I believed every word you said When you couldn't take the blame, and I'm truly fed Up with your games and your lies, can't look my friend in his eyes Because when I do, I see a picture of you And you're staring back... laughing at me So goodbye and take care, au revoir ma chérie You're the one I see when I stare into space And every star is just a freckle on your face I have a hard time thinking positively, cause I'm not good enough for you, that's obvious to me I hate the way you treated me, and I'm afraid you'll do it again So I want it to end I want it to end I want it to end I want it to end And I feel like I'm Losing you, cause I can't do anything that you want me to I'm scared of hurting you, you're scared of hurting me We both know this can't last, we can't put our problems in the past And you don't know just how much I desire to feel your touch I'm losing you, cause I can't do anything that you want me to I'm scared of hurting you, you're scared of hurting me We had our fun, is this the end? I guess we're done, reduced to friends I'll just have to watch and see you find someone else better than me And I feel like I'm Losing you, cause I can't do anything that you want me to (I'm scared of hurting you, you're scared of hurting me) And I feel like I'm Losing you, cause I can't do anything that you want me to (I'm scared of hurting you, you're scared of hurting me)