worn out strings, parts 1-6

I'm done looking in the mirror Pointing out flaws and seeing what's wrong Can't help but feel like i'm not myself Nor who i'd want to be Only thing i'd want to do Is to hatch into a new This shell's grown old and tired A kindled fire is pouring through the cracks and shining bright I'm living for this light And staying up at night Hoping when i wake up, i'll be changed Hidden (deep inside me) Within (just a memory) Will you (hold me tightly) Be there (help me see clearly) And you (begin to unfurl like a rose) See how (your pedals fall inside the prose) We can (i write to lift you from the page) Live on (as one) And if i fall asleep, will i (be the same?) And if i fall asleep, will i (be the same?) And if i fall asleep, will i (be the same?) And if i fall asleep, will i... And though hope can be found in the stitches of this long sleeved sweater Or the folds in this oversized tee It'll be a long time before i feel content In this exquisite corpse i inhibit I pick myself apart over and over I buy and throw out and try on I change and i cleanse and i paint I dress i strip I mark and i cut and i sob I run away and fall I keep trying to be Yet i am not Nor will i ever be I thought i was done I thought i was done I thought i was done I thought i was done You left me alone You left me alone You left me alone You left me alone And if i fall asleep, will i And if i fall asleep, will i And if i fall asleep, will i And if i fall asleep, will i Who are you? I am Found you in a tear-eyed mess Hidden in the subtext Unraveled you from other signs Weaving in between the lines But if i fall asleep Will i be the same when i wake up? In dreams we fly together Remember how it feels to run And i've never felt freer than in those fields Your gaze can protect me from the tears (I play these worn out strings I beat on blood stained heads I see through fractured glasses I sing with broken teeth) I'll keep you hidden inside See the world through your eyes Let you out only when I'm all alone, and even then I'm scared of what you'll do to me Suffocate or set me free Smothered by your endless thoughts Of how to change and how we'll walk Away from what we once were And someday i'll see you again Laying on a bed of flowers We'll collapse into each other (I play these worn out strings I beat on blood stained heads I see through fractured glasses I sing with broken teeth) I feel... I feel... I feel... Watch you as i fall asleep Soft and beautiful, elegant, free And you only exist in my dreams But if i was you then it would all be okay Why can't i be you? I'll grow my hair out and wear dresses too But no matter what i do anyway If i was you then it would all be okay, okay, okay You're everything i could ever be And all that i could ever need And if i fall asleep again Could i be you?