Cutting

Yo I'm cutting my self so I can feel something But I'm numb to the pain yeah I don't feel nothing Yeah My scars do not define me But they ain't fading so it's fine Not covering them up or hiding them Not gonna be ashamed of the mistakes I've made Recovery is a long road And I feel like I'm traveling it alone F*ck this worlds so cold NF was right to tell us to grab our coats I'm just tryna hold on Tryna find some hope And stay away from that rope Just tryna cope Maybe I don't have what it takes To make this a career Yeah that's my fear But I'm shifting to a new gear Giving it all that I got Coming up with new plots Putting strain on my brain But I'm not trying to claim fame Yeah f*ck it maybe I'm insane Having trouble staying on my feet Having trouble staying on this beat Causing trouble cuz I'm such a freak But I haven't even hit my peak Look at me I'm on a streak Maybe I won't taste defeat I wanna die But I don't wanna die I don't know what is going on inside my mind Depression making me feel like another person Tryna hide behind the curtain Between this anxiety And these demons in me I stand no chance you see I was doomed from the start Like I got hit with a poison dart Depression creeping in whenever I get happy This shit is fucking whacky Yo I'm cutting my self so I can feel something But I'm numb to the pain yeah I don't feel nothing Yeah I don't feel nothing She says I got what it takes I say I ain't gonna make it But I done faking I wish I could just disappear Right in front of this mirror here Let me just make this clear I'm not doing this for me I feel like a deer in headlights Would someone Turn on the nightlight I'm done with this fight Jump onto a new flight Going to a new sight Trying to get this right I think I might I'm so tired of this game There is nothing left to gain So ima use this blade And focus on the pain It causes a chain reaction As I start to gain traction Until something comes crashing down My whole world flips around I feel like I'm falling from a cloud All the way to the ground I wonder when I hit will I make a sound Will, there be a crowd Surrounding my body There is nobody right now I'm all alone Sometimes I feel like a clone Yo I'm cutting my self so I can feel something But I'm numb to the pain yeah I don't feel nothing Yeah I don't feel nothing Yeah I don't feel nothing F*ck