Save Me

Predicted every demon that came in my past life. I watched my mother die in front of me that last time The only time I took a drug, to make the dark light Coz that's the only time I see her, when I'm passed out They keep on asking where my daddy is he went out Until I saw him at the funeral I'm mad now To bullet a bullet in his head that's what I'm bout now I know it's crazy how I wanna kill my dad now Wait let me digress about a bit. From all the traumas I hit And all the drugs that I sniff Wait let me move back a bit From all the girls that I hit When I was tryna commit Ah she told me not to come back From all the things that I did She know I wanna come in But she won't even lock in So I won't even break in Ah damn In do or die situations and I just chose to die. Cause they just made me pick between you or the other side. I'm really worried about the place I'd go if I could die. Cause if you look at my life, I promise you could cry. From doing drugs at the house that I saw my mama die in For keeping it a secret knowing that I could've died. My family said I should move on and that's about time. So I can finally do the stuff I'd do in my time Ah wait I think it's time I commit From all the traumas inherited and all the time that I carried it And I just think I think it's time I come out, and tell my family I need them with all the things I be eating You know it's about that time To call the lawyers to come To separate all my things To give my sister the house To give my nephew the car To give the girlfriend the money And pass the letter to Azi and Just to tell her what's happening ah Sometimes you miss person and not the memories Just like you like the achievements and just not the journey. I thought if I could be alone then I would not destroy me I thought if I could leave the drugs then life will not annoy me In this case I miss the person and just not the memories Coz if I tell you about the journey you will not condone it But I just can't be left alone, my heart is not responding I need some medicine inside me or you will not control me. If I show you my past you'd think I'm telling lies If I showed you my dad you'd think I'm all alright If I play them a song they say my futures bright Coz I'm a son of a pastor so I know what's right If I show you my bank you'd say I'm living life If I show them my house you'd say I'm living life If I show you my car you'd say I'm living life But If I show you my scars you'd see I'm not alright Trusting myself has been the hardest thing I ever From losing my parents, and I ain't even felt better. I'm tryna fill up sin cause that's the only way better. Or put a bullet through my father, maybe I will feel better. I'm putting everything on him, he the one to blame. If he had put a condom on I wouldn't be in pain. Just wish my mama would've let abortion take its place. But she the lucky one she all up in our fathers grace. It's crazy I thought losing you would bring me peace. It's how I took your love for granted Couldn't even sleep. I wrote thing song so I can tell you please don't ever leave. I tasted every drug but you're the one I'd never leave.