The world doesn't work

My notebook sucks It won't write me anything anymore F*ck I wish I could take the pain back to the store and get a refund I surely didn't order it The pain, the hurt, the pounding I feel I'm trapped under dirt But f*ck, nobody reaches out anymore Maybe they're out of town I don't know. Maybe I'm too damn needy Maybe I'm too damn needy I don't want to sound like a pygmy I'm just trying to express myself emotionally In a world where it's expected to be normal Everybody expects smiles and laughters, but the world doesn't work like that I'm sure I'm not the only one who wants to be down under Am I Am I Is there a reason something's wrong with me Is there a reason therapy couldn't help me I had to spend a shit ton of money just to feel something again They say it's easy to be happy They want you to bury your feelings In hopes that they go away But it doesn't work like that I wish it did Because then I would be way less sad F*ck, man I wish I didn't have to pay a hundred bucks to not feel pain or drained I wish I could stop the rattling in my brain But it doesn't work like that F*ck