Deathwish

I met you one morning in November On top of the holy mountain Your aura was not like a human's The energy flowing out of your chakras paralyzed me A luminous purple veil surrounds you You open it and welcome me inside As you close the veil over us you start to grin And your index moves to my chin I freeze while your finger touches me We merge, becoming one Your life flashes through my head But has neither beginning nor end You gave me immortality You fulfilled my wish not telling me it's a sin Yet I kneel before you my false King FALSE KING I just wanted to be like you LIKE YOU Feeling immortality Broken Why does it feel like Nothing Eternal suffering Living without life Another infinity would be unbearable Three infinities have passed since we merged into one And I pull myself on the mountain again Where are you? why aren't you here? I want you to redeem me KILL ME KILL ME I want to die Another infinity would be unbearable My soul wanders through endless forests and never ending velds I feel nothing, YET I AM DEATHWISH DEATHWISH I chew off my limbs hoping to feel the pain As I lay on the ground unable to move I recognize fairies hovering over me As I feel their pity a teardrop leaves my EYE