A Mockery in My Eyes...

Plagued by uncertainty So-called friends desert me No longer seek acceptance Once abundant within Staring at the sun, my retinas swell and burn; perennial symbol of hope A mockery in my eyes Pessimistic, the only realistic and preferable way in which to cope Bleak optimism rubbed out by past experience Staring back from my haunting reflection-met with depraved indifference An amorphous state of molecular mass with magnetic conductivity Mortal forces pulsate the inner spectrum, thus kept in closer proximity Black shrouds of mourning to block unwelcome rays of intrusion Alone I contend, but don't know how to make amends Perspiration beads on my temples-a dizzying sensation Gripping the banister to keep from tumbling down the fucking stairs Walled off in somber isolation The sky is filled with stars But none are shining on me Vast-reaching cosmos The stillness of eternity The effervescence of doubt emulsifies my spirit My potential blaring, but I'm too far to hear it No longer concerned With the weather-determined opinions Of insignificant others The effervescence of doubt emulsifies my spirit My potential blaring, but I'm too fucked to hear...