Can't Help Falling Apart

the daylight pours over the table and spills onto your coffee chair as it filters through the winter air on the calendar it still says christmas but i can hear the robins sing as they gear up for the stroke of spring and i can't help falling apart the fear inside me wants to run out into the open sun we reveled in the windchime weather as it turned for the better again and we learned to let the outside in but we never put our weapons down we said we didn't know how we said it's turning for the worse now and we kept on falling apart the fear inside me wants to run out into the open sun am i holding on to the dark? i look for somewhere to arrive but it's just another place to start and i can't help falling apart in a way, as my life gets further from how i thought it would go i get closer to the things i know i'm as young now as i've ever been as old as i will ever be and i'm with you when i am free and i can't help falling apart the fear inside me wants to run out into the open sun am i almost out of the dark? i look for somewhere to arrive but it's just another place to start and i can't help falling apart