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In a room full of people I'm alone But they would never know it The doctor thinks that I should change my meds She thinks I won't outgrow this I wish there was a way to take a break from life But not the way you're thinking Emotionally numb, I don't have the will to fight I'm fading fast, I'm sinking I know that I should just pray like people say But I don't have a clue of words to use that would explain This heavy feeling, so many thoughts run through my brain Oh how I wish that my sad days were my past days I don't really feel like getting out of bed I know I shouldn't stay here Tryna silence all the voices in my head But they are loud and clear My family's counting on me so I've gotta tighten up Hope they don't know that I've quit So I put on a mask and make it work Today just may be different I know that I should just pray like people say But I don't have a clue of words to use that would explain This heavy feeling, so many thoughts run through my brain Oh how I wish that my sad days were my past days I'm not complaining It's just too hard to keep maintaining My thoughts are lying to me (is there light at the end of the tunnel) Turn it over to God completely I've cried and I've tried It ain't that easy Cuz I'm sad and alone, and I feel like no one understands me I know that I should just pray like people say But I don't have a clue of words to use that would explain This heavy feeling, so many thoughts run through my brain Oh how I wish that my sad days were my past days