I Don't Wanna Be You

If we're counting sins, then I'll start with mine Not perfect, said this a dozen times I look in the mirror, only see the fear of Falling down and under in these darkened eyes Try to tell myself don't worry 'bout it Cause I got the talent so I have to make it But the facts are simply when it comes to rap That I can be the best still stuck in Mama's basement Every waking moment know I'm thinking 'bout The chance that I just never make it big Every song I write I wonder if my heart is really Meant to find its place in this Take a second to stop and reflect and try to tell myself it's what I say it is That I know I'm great and I control my fate And I just hope and pray that everything I spit Ain't just mindless positivity speech Not just speaking fake to make and believe Not just hollow like an empty bottle but I'm full of hope that I can reach all my dreams Full of hope that I don't need the dope And I don't need the guns and I don't the need the lean That my heart that's beating to the music beat So I can rock this beat is all I really need So when the doubt starts dripping down, and I feel it all I get anxious Cause I know the slope to me losing hope is so slippery and it's dangerous I'm scared to see if I don't succeed cause I don't know how I'd change it Stuck on repeat, let's just stop the beat This ain't rap, it's just conversation I don't wanna be you I don't wanna be you, you, you I don't wanna be you I don't wanna be you, you, you I wanna be the me looking towards tomorrow Not caught up in the past cause our time is borrowed I wanna be true I don't wanna be you, you, you If we're counting sins then my number's higher Than the views a girl gets for losing clothes Raising higher like smoke and fire from a Burning building with no fire hose Higher still if I'm being real 'cause I've sinned a lot only heaven knows How many times I've cried Swearing up and down that I've got no chance and should drop my goals Bury pain inside my broken chest and If you look into it I'm an empty cage Only seem to find my rhyme and reason when I pour my heart out while I'm on the stage Take a pen and I can rap about it Fill up every book, fill up every page Rap about my rage, rap about the game Now I'm taking aim, fill this track with lead Family says that they love what I do Friends say that I'm fresh and I'm new Fans say, what do fans say? Cause I'm sans fans got no fans fool I'm just making music that's ain't like the music That a lot of people love to dance to And it leads to thinking that my ship is sinking From the weights of doubting in this sand pool So when the doubt starts dripping down, and I feel it all I get anxious Cause I know the slope to me losing hope is so slippery and it's dangerous I'm scared to see if I don't succeed Cause I don't know how I'd change it Stuck on repeat let's just stop the beat This ain't rap, it's just conversation I don't wanna be you I don't wanna be you, you, you I don't wanna be you I don't wanna be you, you, you I wanna be the me looking towards tomorrow Not caught up in the past cause our time is borrowed I wanna be true I don't wanna be you, you, you They tell me to fake it this smile ain't real Told Mama I'd make it too caught in my feels Don't know my direction can't track my progression Can't handle this pressure someone take the wheel Doubt after doubt after doubt in my mind Scared of the future and what I might find Maybe I'm stupid and wasting my time Wasting my time I don't wanna be you I don't wanna be you, you, you I don't wanna be you I don't wanna be you, you, you I wanna be the me looking towards tomorrow Not caught up in the past cause our time is borrowed I wanna be true I don't wanna be you, you, you