On the Other Side

Yo, back at it, this sad rap is a bad habit Just a tad low on my serotonin and that's tragic My headed is clouded, I'm hearing noise and it's mad static And I'm losing track of my path ahead so im walking backwards Like broken records I'm record scratched and I'm battle damaged Living out my life like a clip or snap out a broken camera And I might fizzle, explode the cap like a shaken fanta Often I find myself dallying in this witty banter I can't withstand all the pressure that comes with growing older It'll all work out and I'll get it later is all I'm told so Bent outta shape I'm acute and I'm just about to fold and I'm just stressing for everything that I can't control Maybe I'm too immature to understand it Maybe God is working wonders and it's all his plan and Maybe I'm just toxic wasting like a dying planet And maybe everything is pointless, life is falsely branded Lately wonder why I never seem to fall asleep at night Can't but wanna run away and hide but is it better on the other side Cause I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die But I wonder why I'm still here Living such a life, living such a life And I know it's tough but these are Very troubled times, very troubled times And I'm still standing here cause I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die Still dreaming if you can call this a dream All my thoughts are colored patches they're tearing off at the seams Lately nothing that I've been doing is stable by any means Every work I speak is subject to change It's changing me And by it I mean the world and its way of breaking the chest in you Chip away your heart until all that's left is the chest in you Look into the mirror and suddenly seeing less of you Maybe there's a problem or a twisted way of testing you A blessing is what's waiting I'm waiting for it to show In the river of my life and I'm riding along the flow Lately it's been way too quick and I'm waiting for it to slow But the waves are crashing harder and harder right at my boat Now I'm overboard, drowning in decisions for life Graduating, who I'm dating, where I'm sleeping tonight Where I'm working, what I'm eating Lots of rinsing and repeating, ain't an answer in sight Now Lately wonder why I never seem to fall asleep at night Can't but wanna run away and hide but is it better on the other side Cause I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die But I wonder why I'm still here Living such a life, living such a life And I know it's tough but these are Very troubled times, very troubled times And I'm still standing here cause I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die Lately wonder why I never fall asleep at night I wanna run away and hide, but is it on the other side?