Mindstate

I'm really lost in this mindstae Where being black and being broke is reality For niggas in this mindstate I'm lost in this mindstate Where bodies dropping from them oppers cnd yo name is so easily forgotten I'm just lost in this mindsate Where I can smoke and say f*ck it This a Vaccay for them niggas in the struggle I'm just lost in this mindstate I'm really lost in this mindstate I hope it change for my mind's sake Uhh I fucked up when I tried to save the world I got problems I can't even hash out with my girl My phone start ringing and it makes me wanna hurl Mr. Bill Collector calling and he looking for his Muthafuckin Payout I sigh as I think about the layout Then laugh Lean over cs I ash another blunt out I look up and catch the homie looking serious He say he think he know just why I'm fucking broke This nigga here hilarious Real odd time to make a fucking joke cnd then he say its cause you always got the smoke Ironically he says it with a cough cs he muthafuckin chokes cnd I wanna say fuckem But I stop to make a note To myself To remind him that he muthafuckin smokes In my house On my couch Cause He muthafuckin broke Boy whatchu saying By tomorrow man this nigga will forget it I ain't throwing shots but sometimes he kinda Ignorant Cause he don't know we both numbers Living in a stigma (The f*ck) (F*ck you talkin bout) (Nigga who is you talking to) (Gimme that blunt nigga) I'm really lost in this mindstae Where being black and being broke is reality For niggas in this mindstate I'm lost in this mindstate Where bodies dropping from them oppers cnd yo name is so easily forgotten I'm just lost in this mindsate Where I can smoke and say f*ck it This a vaccay for them niggas in the struggle I'm just lost in this mindstate I'm really lost in this mindstate I hope it change for my mind's sake In this mindstate ya family beat ya down They the ones to kick you in the face While you on the ground cnd to wonder when you make it up Why they not around Shit is crazy looking at it like You must think I'm a clown Let me break it down Sleeping on the floor with my kids I'm broke as f*ck don't got no money cin't got nothing to give You ask for help but people saying It ain't none they biz This shit a trip wondering Where the f*ck we gone live This is my life cnd every night Thinking about getting a knife and Cutting me twice I'm eating Ramen noodles daily clternative rice My daughter asking for some ice cream I only got ice This shit ain't right Do whatever to keep on the lights You serve us drugs hand us guns and tell us not to fight Its getting darker every day My daughter keeping it bright cnd to the man I'm blowing smoke I guess I'm high as kite I getting hard to wake up Got people on the corner dying everyday Its survival of the fittest when you living this way Now Brenda on the corner cause she mourning her baby So how the f*ck you understand us when you waking up safely