The Will Of The River

Tore out the map of California Drew it on my arm with a ballpoint pen All the ideas they try and pawn ya You can choose your place just like Your own patch of skin It's so hard loving somebody when there's Something inside me that pulls my arm I'll stay steady just as long As I'm able to be Not far from here I was delivered Grew up making promises with My fingers crossed I'd go and stare into the river Learn the art of moving on at anyone's cost You'll understand it from a distance A shiny silver line all squiggly and bent Chooses the path of least resistance Flows under the heaviness of it's own intent It's so hard loving somebody when there's Something inside me that pulls my arm I'll stay steady just as long As I'm able to be Taunt me, want me, just never try to haunt me A restless ghost already wears my Body like a glove Tend me, bend me, just never try to mend me It's the only way that I know how to love My heart it hangs inside me heavy It beats and keeps some kind Of dark secret time It's quiet when I'm by the levee Watch the swirling rainbows of The factory slime The flattest stones and mammoth bones Fossils for children scavenging on the banks Like it much better when alone When they ask me to play I just say I'm okay Thanks It's so hard loving somebody when there's Something inside me I'll stay calm, I'll stay steady just as long As I'm able to be