Paradox

Man I can feel this demon on the back of my neck I see this mother fucka’ eating up most of my check I feel I’m losing my endurance and most my respect But I’m acting like a bitch so what I expect? Yea, yea insecurities are carved in me And all this dust in my eye make it hard to see All this gravel in my mouth make it hard to breathe And all this coochie in my mouth make it hard to leave I done turned to a frog, I should “ribbit” today I should show up to her house and beg her to stay I should look through my box of my VHS tapes I should stand in the mirror and ask for a date In my room alone dancing like I’m Carlton Banks Wit’ no food in the fridge or a carton to drink My nose been stuffy for 3 days I can’t tell if I stink Where’s my award? I got so many people to tank, yea yea What a weird little paradox this is I’m not even sure if I have the strength What a pretty little house that we’ve built Wouldn’t it be real funny if I tore down it’s limbs Kakarot shit’ I was training today I was eating lots of fiber, no straining today I was grinding up in Jersey, Chef Ed Mixtape And that was on the same day my ex was fucking her date And that was on the same week that I traveled to Queens Tryna’ get this asian woman to do something wit’ me What you staring at me for? Boy there’s nothing to see Who would of guess how recluse I would turn out to be Aw yea, aw yea I was living today Me, myself and I, we had a little picnic today I didn’t drink the red wine but I ate sour grapes And all this self-sabotaging had me stuffing my face I ain’t really like the feeling but I’m loving the taste Who gives a f*ck if I win, boy I’m loving the race Photographic memory every since I was eight Who would of guess that would turn to my dangerous fate? Yea yea What a weird little paradox this is I’m not even sure if I have the strength What a pretty little house that we’ve built Wouldn’t it be real funny if I tore down it’s limbs What a weird little paradox this is I’m not even sure if I have the strength What a pretty little house that we’ve built Wouldn’t it be real funny if I tore down it’s limbs